Recently I had an experience with school work mounting up. I had 2 exams and a take home exam along with lab work and other reading assignments. This being my last semester before grad school, I wanted to finish up strong and was cruising through this semester.
So I started working on this take home exam and it was not really going well at all. I was unable to understand any of it, and became more and more anxious and stressed out, thinking to myself, “I am going to fail, and even if I do pass how can I possibly do grad school if this gives me so much trouble?”
A few minutes later I stopped myself and said, “What am I doing?” I remembered the verse “don’t be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your request to God.” (Philippians 4:6) And so I tried to relax and say God is in control; everything is ok, and I just couldn’t shake the stress and anxiety. So I prayed and asked God to show me how to cast my cares unto him (Psalms 55:22) and how not to be anxious. And I stopped studying and went outside.
Within the time it took me to walk out of my apartment and down the stairs to the crisp night air, I felt a wonderful peace cover me which has lasted the whole weekend. I am still struggling with figuring out the work but I am slowly getting closer. I am finding out how to enjoy God in the simple task of doing my homework and in the midst of failing to understand my homework, and it is simply awesome. You might think I would end this with a success story, and there will probably be one, but to me what I have said is one already. (The outcome of my grade matters little to me compared with walking in faith with my Savior.)
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